English

"We all die in the end, it's just a matter of how and when." There have been times when my faith has been shattered beyond full healing. I walk the land scarred, filled with rage, pain, and regret. I miss believing in the future, and contemplating and what was to come, but the vision has been lost, and I am blind to its once glorious outlook. I constantly find myself at a crossroads that I never would've thought in my wildest nightmares would've happened to me. My struggle has been difficult to bear to say the least, and my patience for it ran out on me so long ago, that I wonder, "Why do I still attempt to fight? What am I fighting for anymore? Why after so many failures do I attempt to find even one endeavor in which I may prevail and succeed?" I struggle to find logic and reason within my own madness, let alone to attempt to understand the insanity of this thing we call life, otherwise known as "the human condition". It has been so long since I have felt like I was a part of life on this little blue ball we call Earth, yet I have been cast out for so long, that there are days I wake up feeling like I don't belong, like maybe the chance to live my life the way I have imagined it lies in another corner of this thing we call our universe. I hoped for a happy life, I've asked the spirits for that, I have even asked for just the slightest bit of guidance in the proper direction that would help me find the path that would lead me to that on my own, yet every path I take seems to clash with my morals and values, or makes me repeat certain parts of the path over and over again to where not only am I no longer moving forward, but I'm just running in flipping circles, chasing my fluffy tail. I want my mind back, I want to think clearly again, to no longer be blinded by the dark forces of life. Sometimes, it feels safer for me to just hide in the dark, to not expose myself to the world. Other times, it feels like there must be some reason for all of us to have gone through life as we all have, perhaps to prepare us for something beyond any of us. Like so many who have come before me, I wish to know and find my destiny, yet I also worry, even fear the possible outcomes that could come from even the simplest of choices, to the life changing events that are still to come.

Scorpio

Muscular

6' 0 (1.83 m)

Hazel

Caucasian

Single

No

Not Sure

Eyes

Scarred

Dark Brown

Dog

No

Some College

Student

Entertainment / Media

Audio Technician

Less Than $14,999USD

Alone

All Is Calm

Yes - But Non Tobacco

Yes - Socially

Outcast

Anti-social, Comedic, Dark, Flirtatious, Friendly, Observant, Reserved, Shy, Strange, Fire Starter

Arts & Crafts, Camping, Computers, Cooking, Fishing / Hunting, Internet, Games, Gardening, Learning, Movies, Music, Religion / Spirituality, Theater, Travel, Tv

Hanging Out With Friends, Going To A Concert, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Relaxing, Sleeping, Staying At Home, The Movies, Tv

My idea of an ideal first date is just a fantasy that clouds my vision of the reality of the situation. If I could, I would probably go overboard, offering what I would think of the perfect date, a movie, dinner, conversating in the hopes to learn about one another, finding out what makes her different from anyone and everyone else, and to hopefully make plans for more dates in the future.

I have experienced many things in my short time being here, I honestly don't know what else I'd like to try, except possibly living a good life.

Friendly, Cool, Obscure, Goofy, A Flirt, I Don't Have Any Friends

Other

Never

Libertarian

To find at least one thing that I can do well enough to earn a meager living, to be able to provide for myself, and whoever dares to brave a possible future with me. I want to find something in life worth fighting for again.

Clever, Friendly, Goofy, Slapstick, Raunchy

Cartoons, Documentaries, Movies

Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Family, Animation, Horror, Thriller, Adult

Metal, Punk, Rock

Ancient, Anthology, Comic, Computers, Erotica, Fantasy, Fiction, History, Horror, Humor, Instructional, Mathematics, Music, Mystery, Nature, Philosophy, Supernatural, Reference, Satire, Science Fiction, Technical, I Don't Like Reading

Fun? Who has fun anymore? Didn't fun die with the Y2K scare, and the turn of the millenium? Even when I try to have fun, some soul-****ing vampyre is always out on the prowl to thwart any fun I might have.

Empathy, Flirtatiousness, Good Looks, Great Skills, Humor, Intelligence, Sensitivity, Thoughtfullness, Wit

Someone who sees me for me, someone who sees through the fortified defenses of my heart and soul. Someone who will be there when I need them, as will always do what I can to be there for them. Someone who will support me when no one else will. Someone who will help me brainstorm when troubleshooting my problems in life. Someone I can agree with on any number of subjects, as long as we can both validate our positions and views on the matter.

Date, Intimate, Committed